
Sometimes, there's this feeling of a heavy rock on my heart.
I feel suffocated, I feel lost.
I tried looking for the answer to it,
it turns out the answers to it are always...
Worrying too much
Pushing myself too hard...etc etc
But, I feel that it is more than that.
Since a time, I can feel that I've changed.
Changing into someone who is impatient.
Changing into someone who likes to blame.
Changing into someone who complaint a lot.
Changing into someone who is isolating from others.
Changing into someone whom I can say, feels like giving up on something.
Am I a person who will share my real problems or my thoughts with others?
Am I a person who will bravely voice out my opinion?
I think I'm not.
Many times I choose to just keep quiet, or agree with everyone.
I want to avoid tension situation.
I don't want too many disagreements to happen.
People may think that I'm a two headed snake or a coward.
I don't blame them, cause I feel the same way too.
Sigh~ what's playing in me?
